You seem to be in a never ending cycle with your H and the C sessions. Something has to change, either what you are doing there or going to a different C. You both are fighting for the same thing you are just on opposite sides. You need to find some common ground and work from there.
You are a strong person to put yourself through all of this and still be working on your M. I keep wavering back and forth wondering if its all worth it and how much longer I can put up with it.
