Just hada brief chat with W. She dropped off D7 and was under the impression that I did not want to see her so she dropped off D7 with my mom. She told me that I am important to her and not just becasue i am the father of her child. I asked her what that means exactly....I am important to her and how can she act the way she does and did if a person is important to her? She said she was too emotional to talk about it and would call back later. I don't know what the hell i am fishing for. Maybe i just want her to admit that she has been lying to me for well over a year. Maybe i want her to admit that she has no moral fiber in her body....maybe i want her to admit that she has some serious problems. I put mysel in her shoes and never in a million years would i have acted this way. Amybe I would have strayed on vacation BUT to take that to the next level and fall in love with someone in another country and literally blow away ten years of your life?????? Maybe all this is for the best....BBJ is right I do deserve better....hell even W agrees.....why can"t i just get it through my hard head....MOVE ON!
