Stop worrying about what she wants. WHAT DO YOU WANT? Figure that out first and foremost. Once you are clear on that, you can figure out next steps. Many here will help you.
It took me a while to figure that out. I have put up with a lot of $hit in my sitch - more than many would say is worthwhile. When I get knocked down (and this is happening less frequently), I pick myself up and keep going. BUT I have, for the most part, realized I can only control ME. So I focus on me and my kids.
Trust me, it helps the sanity. The pain will not go away, but you can dull it somewhat... and believe me that helps.
Stay strong bud. Fight for what YOU want!
LIS
M45 WW 43 D17/S14/D11
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No one ever has, or ever will, escape the consequences of their actions.