I know maybe it shouldn't but it has surprised me... in a way.
It was her birthday yesterday. I had not contacted her since the beginning of the week and then simply bought her a beautiful bunch of flowers and a card and left them at her house. She sent me a text saying thankyou and then called me later to say thankyou again.
I want very, very much to talk to her as I feel I cannot go on with this pretending I am moving on whilst loving her and missing her thing. It is devastating me and, although I have acted very cool since Monday I feel I will have to confront her soon and insist that we sit and talk.
I am thinking of telling her that she must make a decision. Him or me... and that if the last 10 weeks of dating and happiness combined with a week of space to mull over things hasn't been enough then, even though it is the last thing on Earth I want to do and it absolutely breaks my heart, I will have to walk away.
I could do with pointers Puppy...
I love her so, so much. I think, underneath all of this, she loves me too. Is that wrong?
