Hi Friends:

I am not sure why I am having a tougher time than usual beating this stuck/paralyzed feeling....

I am rested. I think I am mentally tired of work Turbulence. I was hoping for a nice plateau resting point. And I really was going to skip the seminar - I don't need the CLE credits - it is in DC (been there done that) - it is expensive (I would rather spend the money of personal stuff).

And this whole financial crisis is on my mind... I wish a businessman/woman was running for president...A Buffet, Bloomberg, Forbes,Bill Gates and/or Carly ticket would be nice. Buffet predicted things would get a lot worse before it got better months ago... I have finally saved up the 401k amounts for 2007 (deadline is Oct 15th) and will have the 1/2 the amount for 2008 by the end of the month - I was lazy and didn't have time to hire someone to invest it - now I am relieved that it is sitting in an 401k basic savings account. My old 401k stuff is dropping like a rock...

My boss called yesterday - he has been out sick with the flu. We have a number of pressing issues - so when I didn't hear from him for awhile - I started wondering if he was let go...

My Humongo Client assigned assistant went on maternity leave 1 1/2 weeks ago. I was finally assigned a temporary assistant - was wondering if they were going to let me go - looks like not yet. They also renewed my humongo client email account and my access to their databases... That could just be automtatic logistical stuff...

The end of the fiscal year is Oct - I suspect the layoffs will start next fiscal year. This CEO is known for being Mr. Genius Cost Cutter - and he is doing a gutsy merger - I suppose he needs to do this... Sometimes you wonder for whom - not the people employed by the company... Stock prices are all that matters... That being said - b/c I am outside counsel - I am paid from a different bucket of money. Sometimes when companies over-fire - they turn to contractors to do the work....

lodo posted something on his thread - and I suspect it may be very true in my case... When some women face stress - they dump their R's - some men think their R's will wait... That struck a cord with me - my C accused me of doing that very same thing in pre-M R's... Was a little harsher - accused me of treating men like prostitutes that I used and dump at my own convenience back then... I was very cognizant of that during my M - perhaps so much so that I swung too far the other way and I became too exhausted... And now I find myself at a point in my career where work is a very significant component of my life. Perhaps I will have to wait till I retire to date. In the midst of my tiredness right now - that feeling that I simply do not have the time or energy for an R is very strong... And I will no longer use men when I have a little down time...C clockwork oranged me out of that one...

Tiredness or not - I am commited to my GAL actitivities...

Life is - well I am a little tired.

take care,
AG