More journaling - we had a long talk last night. He admits being a bit all over the place... (stuff with the OW).

He said he didn't know why I didn't send him "packing" until he got his crap together and settled with the OW. I looked into his eyes and said: "Do I really have to tell you why? I think you know."

He teared up and told me he loved me. *smile* I told him that I loved him back and then he said that telling each other that was perfectly OK, in his books. (Reassuring me that it was ok to say it.) \:\)

We have a long road ahead of us, and there's one major stumbling block that has to do with this sitch with the OW. He doesn't want to hurt me, or me to get hurt and of course, that makes us afraid (more OW sitch junk)... but basically he said he he sees us back together. If this sitch wasn't happening with the OW,... we'd already be "officially" back together.

I reassured him we'll make this work... and that I"m not going anywhere and will stick with this in the long haul. Certainly I'm afraid that she'll pull something out of her butt and draw him back somehow... but right now,... I'm determined to look at anything she pulls as bumps in the road. We're headed in the right direction,... and we now need to keep piecing and reconnecting with one another. This "sitch" is going to require a pile of talking and communication. So one step sideways, 2 steps forward. *smile*

He's trying to head back here tonight.

Abbey \:\)

T:22, M:20
H:55 Me:45
H-OW PA: N/07
OW Jan08
Bomb:Feb/08
S: Apr/08
Back together Ap1/09-Sept/11
Oct, 2011, uncertain future/H is a mess.
Dec/11 - Doin'friend mode. Some days are better than others.