Was this just my H spewing, or was it more than this? I am having a hard time reconciling him wanting to do joint sessions with saying being in the same house with me would be like jail and that he can't imagine being married. Newsflash to him, he IS married.
I also don't understand why he has gotten worse with time instead of better when I have been doing everything right in DB terms. Does this mean I should be trying a different approach entirely? Is my DB approach actually wrong? Should I be showing more emotion? At the end of the call yesterday he said to me "I have spent most of the time talking, is there anything that you wanted to say?" I just said that I was happy taking it one day at a time and taking Jody's lead on this, that at the moment I didn't feel like there was a lot more to say.
Does he have NO idea how much pain he is causing me? Does he hope I will leave HIM? I am just feeling completely unsure of everything at the moment. I wonder whether he will reach out today or whether contact is going to get less and less. Is he just trying to end things with me? He doesn't even want friendship beyond these ridiculous IMs, even though when I left he said he wanted to work on the friendship. I am now pleasant to be around but he still can't be around me??? He may come to Poland to visit but he wouldn't want me to stay the night in HIS bed?
Sorry I know I'm spewing myself here, but so far I am NOT having a very good day and could REALLY use some encouragement...
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Me:34 H:36 M:5 years T: 8 years Bomb: 07/17/08 I want to be separated for 6 months--I don't know what I want the outcome to be S 07/28/08-11/08/08 Living together ~7 months D Possibly busted?!?!!!
