Maybe that's why she's so fiercly attacking me...she's looking to find a weakness to exploit to stop my awesome power and all the massive destruction it brings!
I did talk w/ W last night as I called for D once and got no answer, so I decided to try again. D had fallen asleep on W's chest and that is why I didn't talk to her yesterday.
While we were on the phone last night, W said "I'm not doing this on purpose" referring to my not talking to D. Was that guilt coming out b/c I didn't mention it at all. It was completely unsolicited.
Anyway, I didn't say much except to offer my sympathies for my baby being sick and run down. I didn't look to start and conversations w/ W and the line went quiet after W told me the basics about our child.
I took that as an opportunity to end the conversation - which is something my DB coach told me to do -- make sure I'm the one ending the conversations as she LOVES to have "hang up" power on me. Anyway, I just said, "let her rest as she needs some sleep and I'll check on her tomorrow. Good night." Click.
Tonight I called and left a message and D called right back. We talked for a bit and I found out she'd fallen down at school and scraped up a knee. She said she was doing pretty well, but her knee hurt. She said they had "company" so she wanted to go, so we said good night and I love you and that was it.
The good news is the thought of the "Flavor of the Month" being over there only crossed my mind briefly and I didn't really get affected by it. If he's there, there's nothing I can do about it anyway, so why bother. I'm glad I'm at a point where it isn't bothering me so much any more.
I never wanted to be here, but it is a good place to be.
Well, I'm off to read and head for bed. Talk to you all later.
