Hey everyone, just finished with MIL's funeral, very nice, W did a great job of making all of the arrangements. Everyone, W friends, my friends, friends of the family, were all their.
My kids were all dress up in their Sunday best, they were all good, we picked flowers for my FIL and W and handed them to them when we arrived.
everyone was telling me if I need help just call them and they will be their for me, wow, was crazy, everyone all the girls, women, everyone was telling me how good I looked I use to have a hair cut like a marine and I've let my hair grow long, my W best friend told me several times how good I looked and her sister said the same thing. W sister told me again today how much her sister thought how good I looked, everyone was hugging me, was wierd, I don't know what they expected me to look like, sad, depressed, worn down, etc.
W just called me to tell me thanks and tell me she loved me, that I'm such a great father, I'm such a great guy, I'm such a great person, That she was sorry. I told her I loved her too and I was over the anger, but not the hurt that she caused me, told her not to worry about me I would be fine that she should take care of herself and if she needed anything I would be here for her.
She told me again she didn't want to hurt me that she was sorry that she couldn't be the person I wanted her to be (that means mother and wife), she told me again that I'm so good with the children, that I'm doing such a great job with them, that they are such good kids, I told her it was because of both of us that they were good kids. She complimented me on how good I am with the kids and said she cannot do it anymore (that means being patient with them, not worrying over every little thing)
So much for having someone to love you but you cannot hold them or show your love for them. This hurts me the most
So I'll
Just keep swimming, just keep swimming
M45 W41 M10.75 years D9, D6, D6, S5 OM confirmed 12/07 merry christmas to me WAM (Walk Away Mom) 05/31/08 W files for D 07/18/08 Date I'll forgive W for A = never
I use to have a hair cut like a marine and I've let my hair grow long, my W best friend told me several times how good I looked and her sister said the same thing. W sister told me again today how much her sister thought how good I looked, everyone was hugging me, was wierd, I don't know what they expected me to look like, sad, depressed, worn down, etc. 
