Sooooooooo, today I realized that only a day and a half remains til I go to court. I will be seeing X for the first time in months!!! I'm not at all nervous about seeing him, tho, he'll have a guilt inducing look of disapproval on his face. I'm nervous about testifying in front of everyone that happens to appear at that time.............But...........I will take a Xanax (1/2 dose) and gird myself for the ordeal!!!!

In the meantime, I just got done making Asparagus Soup and it is delish!!! Don't know why but I'm in a soup mood. Made beef/veggie last week. Tonight I'm making Perch for dinner. I've never really gotten into cooking much but lately I'm on a culinary rip!!!

So, any ideas on how to keep my nerves at bay other than drink and drugs??? Not that I'm opposed to that.............