I am impressed by how "this" happens. It's like every little piece needs to be picked up from the floor, cleaned and CAREFULLY placed to its position... WOW!! BBJ, it does sound hard but it also sounds... creative. You are putting your life back together, slowly, with effort and you are both still confused, sound like you are "lost", trying to find your way but with very clear picture of where you want to go. Amazing. I hope my English make sense... I am happy for you. Love S(is)