Thanks guys for encouraging me to go darkish with my xh. I do think it's best and he needs his time and space as do I.

He picked me up for tennis and when we were almost there the instructor called to say he hurt his back this am in a tournament and couldn't give us class \:\( We'll begin next Wednesday instead. So we went to the club anyways and I had breakfast while D and xh played around. He brought me home a little while ago.

So I won't contact him today unless its absolutely important. Everytime I see him I miss him and I think to get stronger I need to stay away from him for a while. Staying away will be good.

Jen *The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present*

The end of the DB road