Morning Ladies and Gents. I'm doing fine. I think that was a little panic attack yesterday. Strange.
I'm just tired of it all. I'm tired of wondering what drama she is up to now and how much of anything is truth. I'm tired of wondering if the guy in the truck next to me at the stoplight is one of her guys and being reminded of all this drama as I drive around our two little towns and see the dive bars and the friends houses and the police station and the rest.
I'm working on letting it all go. I say that I'm tired of it all, but, I'm doing much better than a few weeks ago, but, I do still catch myself getting caught up in it in my head from time to time.
So, it looks like a time to be patient and focus on finding a new job closer to home. I had an interview on Monday for a job that is within biking distance and would be an awesome job. I'm supposed to hear back by Friday if they want me back for a second interview. Then, I'm still waiting to hear from my best man on a remote job working with him. Once I'm working closer to home, I will have more time and energy available to spend with the kids and presumably more money as well. I want to break out of the routine we have now which is I pickup the kids, they play for 30 minutes while I'm getting dinner ready, we eat, the older two do homework and everyone gets ready for bed. It's not exactly the life that I envisioned before the kids were born.
I think I'm going to make an appointment with my IC soon as there have been enough changes come down the pike recently, that I could use some help sorting things out.
