Get mad,get strong;wipe your hands..then u STAND!

[Treese]

Di....you are right.....I have done a little better in the past week or so....mainly cause I haven't seen H much....and the contact I have had has been little....

I have been going out with friends lately....alot....son says I go out every night...lol....see how used they are to me being home and moping....I can't do it anymore....I want a life....I want to feel good, happy, and free....it's time....I can't change the past....I can now just move in a direction good for ME and my children....if he files...so be it....he's the one who loses....of course I say this now until he comes over and plays with my emotions all over again....until that envelope comes to tell me he is the father of the other child....until all this comes to surface AGAIN......but maybe I'll be stronger about it...I don't know....I just hope you all will still be here to help pick up my pieces....to get me through it AGAIN.....

Ok, so I'm going to be poor....but money poor....not love poor....I am still Treese....I am still the loving, caring, giving person I have always been.....and NO ONE can take that away....

The other day my son's bball game got cancelled because of the storm coming in....IKE remnants.....the wind was at 75 mph...awful....we actually had a state of emergency....school has been out for 3 days....anyway...H did call to tell me to get flashlights out just in case I was to lose power....so yes, he was thinking about us....but he knew I already knew to do that...
He has been extremely busy with work as he is in charge of 8 stores and 6 were without power....some still have no power...a lot of the city has no power....D16's friends have no power and fortunately we never lost power....I told all her friends they were welcome here to shower or whatever....that's what you do in crisis....you help....those kids know they can count on me....maybe God left me with power for a reason.....don't know if H has power where he is staying...never asked....don't really care....

So, this is where I stand right now....making the best of a bad situation.....