Another one bites the dust

[Lissie]

Here is my delima and I know it is coming from a very weak place right now. Do I take him up on his offer to become his friend in hopes of winning his love back or to I just cut him off completely so that I can move on with my life and hopefully heal from the pain I am in? I am sorry that I am not being very strong right now, things have just been extremely tough lately. I think most of it is coming from fear of what next weeks results will be, but still I just wish I had someone to help hold me up at times.

First of all big HUGS.

I am so sorry you are huring. That pain, that is just unexplainable sometimes, is just horrible. I am sorry for that.

I will add you also to my prayers, I hope that by this time you have gotten at least some rest, and feel a bit better.

I think that you are in charge here sweetie. If you can be his "friend" with zero expectations as of now, then go for it.

If you are not ready to be his friend right now b/c you need to heal some more, then by all means heal some.

You will still be cordial with him and considerate of course. It just means that you do not have to engage in conversations with him like you mentioned above. Those are so draining, and you have have other things to focus on. Like YOU.

I know it is easier said than done, believe me I know.

I also know that with the help of your God, your friends, and positive people in your life, you can make the decision to let Go, and Let God.

One day at a time, shoot, I used to do half hour at a time.

The pain of being abandoned, lied to and cheated on, is a heavy heavy load. It takes time Sugar, and you have an added spin with the becoming ill during it. It hits like a truck.

Be kind to yourself, pamper youself. You are worthy and in the words of my buddy Jules, you matter.

Hope you have a wonderful day.

You are being prayed for.