This is not at all an easy ride. Some days we feel like things are going well, and some days, the very same circumstances can make us feel like it is all unravelling. I've not been back to all your threads, but will nevertheless offer the following.
Originally Posted By: brokenhearted
<Sigh> I was so strong, I saw my path, I knew what needed to happen to make it through the tunnel....and yet I waiver. I hate this. I really do. Trust me it is the fear of the last few days talking, but still I hate this.
Often, we are hardest on ourselves, and we need to find space to be kind to us. I remember the 'roller-coaster' ride, and looking back, a lot of it was my perception. H's path was a classic one - and like most people here say, 18-30 months is how long it takes for the 'wake-up'. But what happens after really is down to how both parties interacted during the hard times.
Could you cut yourself some slack, accept that you will have days when you should be awarded points for just drawing breadth? Be confident that the universe loves you, all of us here are rooting for you, and that STBXH has a big dark shroud that is making it difficult for him to think?
