NikB #29 (keepin' up the piecing!)

[NikB]

Thanks Michelle!! Yes sooo glad she's OK. Tonight she even looked at me disgusted and went to bed early... means she's totally back to herself.

H was funny tonight.. he called me at work WAY earlier than he'd normally call me to tell me he was going to be out, looking at cards "and stuff." And said "Please don't be suspicious I'm just looking at cards and..uh.. stuff." (in other words... likely shopping for my BD card and gift along with his sis and grandfather's).

I recently told him that I want us both to have our "freedom" but it bothers me to not know if I should expect him at 4, 8, or 10... he said the same about me.. so we agreed to call each other on "unusually late" nights. Very cool that he called me!! This is also THE first year he's bought his family's cards. Even when we were practically separated I did it as a favor. He called to specifically ask me NOT to so he could do it.

I try to restrain myself but lately sometimes I ask "That's what you're really doing, right?"... tonight I started to and stopped myself and H joked "I know, I know, yes I really AM out shopping for cards and YOUR BD is coming up so don't ask me for so many details!"

He was in a funky mood tonight but I did my best to think about it (WAS it me??) and not take it personally.. hopefully the right approach. Where's that "line" between trusting your gut and "it's not about me"?? Gotta find that one...