I didn't go completely dark. I just went very dim. But after a week, and I did initiate the contact but there was a purpose, we have talked almost every day. If a day goes by and I don't hear from him, I don't freak. It has gotten easier, and although he is still on my mind much of the time, the pain is not there anymore.
I think part of the reason for going dim/dark is so that you can get your own strength back. When you are going through all this, it is very easy to backslide. Remember how many times we have all done it? Well, by doing this, it makes it easier to handle. It is like taking a piece of yourself back. You realize that you still love your H, but you also realize that you are someone w/o him. It does not become this life and death need to contact. And when you start doing that, they realize that you are not so clingy and needy. And that becomes more attractive, because instead of feeling like they are obligated to spend time, they find themselves wanting too.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
