I'm such a wimp for NC...can't go any longet than a day. I know it's pushing him away a bit because he doesn't respond unless it's important. Ok so no more calls tonight and nothing tommorrow until I see him. Whatever comes up can wait. I want meaningless contact so I have to do the opposite of what I want right?
Jen *The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present*
Hi Addie...tennis should be fun, we used to have a great time when we took lessons before.
I spoke to him again. He called for D to say goodnight. I told her I met her new teachers today she wanted to know what their names were. I asked her if she was going to sleep with Daddy or Titi (her nickname for her Aunt) tonight and she said "Titi because Daddy snores!" He tickled her and we laughed.
He came on to talk to me and we spoke about plans for tomorrow and school supplies for about 10 minutes. I let him go. I have to send him a text when I finish at the meeting tomorrow.
Jen *The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present*
He and I chatted a bit...my Nan is going down hill pretty fast and I was speaking to my Mom while we were chatting so I filled him in.
NC...if it feels bad it's got to be good??? No pain no gain??? I think we're all insane
It is hard. I am not going to deny that. But if you ever want to see how well it works. look at my sitch...I did it for a week. NC, none, nada, zip, zilch.
H and I have talked almost every day since. And for me, alot of the fear is gone. Being able to get through that gives you so much strength it is unbelievable. Even if H doesn't contact me for a few days, I know I will be okay. You will too.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
I know I'll be ok if I don't talk to him (Saturday we didn't speak or text each other). I'll do my best to have fun playing tennis and taking the lessons with him and then go a little dark once he drops me off. Pitch dark doesn't work well with him but dim does wonders for my sitch.
Jen *The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present*
