I wish I had the words that I knew would make your pain go away. It seems to keep happening over and over again. You distance yourself and think you can get through this and then something triggers it all over again. It does get better, I promise. I wouldn't have believed that myself a mere 2 months ago, but it does. I am here if you want to talk. Hugs.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory