Quote: I'm also wondering if there are any LRT-type options left. Any way to rock his world while staying with him. I am not sure what this might entail, am certainly not suggesting some A or open marriage. But is there yet a way to open his eyes to what he could be losing?
well let's see...I've already pulled the "I'm calling a lawyer myself" routine..actually did make an appointment...h wasn't sure what to do with that one...but eventually decided that he didn't want me to leave him and that is when he became willing to go to c with me...
there is no other card to pull..the deck has been shuffled too many times...if I were to have an a (and mind you I am damn close...the only thing keeping me from it is the fact that I don't want to stoop to his level).
most people are devistated when they hear the line "Ily I'm not inwy" well my response was..."I'm not inlove with you either, I just happen to love you".
so you see I was already on the way to waw when all this started...I already had thoughts of one day leaving or better yet not having to leave (I know that's morbid).
there are only so many ways that you can say things and if they don't get through they don't get through.
honestly at this point I am convinced that h and I should not have married...it was a mistake...h came home because it was "the right thing to do" sure he loves me...like a sister or cousin etc...
what will happen?? I don't know..I'm not going anywhere...a few years left til I get alimony so I might as well suck it up...best case..things get better...worse case they don't but I'll be set with alimony and the kids will be old enough that I can have a life without guilt.
so off to the eye doctor..luckily a friend is comming with me to keep the kids entertained while I go in...ah but I wont have to make any phone call to h if I am seen...he knows my friend. I don't lie like he does!!
