Quote: Let me ask you this...what will you be doing differently now that you've made your decision?
giving little to no consideration to h and his feelings (as if he has any) not bothering to do his laundry (or rather finish it for him when he pretends to be doing it by simply bringing it up to the laundry room and maybe putting it in the washer)
not bothering to cook any special meals for him (heck the kids are happy with pb&j or mac and cheese and could care less about roast beef dinners or chicken marsala)
not bothering to answer the phone when he calls
not bothering to call him
not bothering to consider him when friends call to ask me to go out.
not bothering to be available to him
not bothering to care where his is or what he's doing
making more use of the birthday gift my friends gave me and not feeling guilty about it..infact I think I'll invest in a new improved model.
Quote: Did something "happen" last night, today?
let's see...I've been having a problem with my eye...went to one er last monday...then to mass eye and ear on wed...was asked by the doctor to return on sat then asked to return again on sunday...have to go back again today...had planned for a friend to come with me so that the kids could be attended to while I go in for exam...he's busy (he's also gay no ea or pa there just a childhood friend) with a dentist appointment he was reminded of yesterday...now let's back track and recall how ow friendship was disclosed to me...h stopped work when she called to take her to a pre scheduled doctors appointment...h called to say hello...I let him know that I have to find someone to help me with the appointment...he tells me to call our occassional sitter, or my cousin, or someone...never once bothers to say anything resembling "I'll see what I can do with my schedule" then proceeds to be a jerk about things when he can sense that I'm obviously aggrivated by it. eventually just plain hangs up on me.
ow's house seems to no longer be for sale...wonder if she's still divorcing her h.
I just don't like this pathetic life. I just don't like my h. I just don't like being so lonely. I just don't like being with a man who thinks it's perfectly fine to put me last. I just don't like knowing that the only reason h is even here is because of his children.
I'm all set with this life...I'm tired of not wanting to come home...I'm tired of not wanting to be here when I am...I'm tired of feeling like a fool...I'm tired of feeling humilitated. I'm tired of h expecting me to just say ok it's fine..nothings really changed but I'm ok with what you put me through....I'm tired of h's lack of empathy...I'm tired of just pretending that this life is good enough...IT'S NOT! I didn't deserve any of what h did and I'm tired of taking responsibility for it!!
