I walked for about 45 minutes and when I came back his car was gone.
I called him in the driveway and he said he was going home. I asked him to turn around and come back so we can go to counseling and he refused and we had a huge argument on the phone. Some backsliding on my part but I was so hurt and furious I could not stop! He is suck a jack---! I hate him for doing this to me over and over and over again. No matter what I do it is not good enough, even when I do the thing he wants me to do! He told me to give him space so I did and he left without so much as a phone call to say goodbye!
I told him he was running away. He did not agree. I yelled, I screamed, I cursed, I cried. Nothing made a difference.
Finally I calmed down a little bit and explained that I was mostly upset because the number one thing that always made him mad was that I was always frustrated and tense and got too stressed out about things and would not just "let things go" and yet here we are and he refuses to let anything go and I am like "can you just come back so we can have a good night together?". But no. . .
He was in a bad mood. SO WHAT! Get over it! Man up!
It makes me insane because I have given this man everything and he is just such a pain in the rear! He is so ungratful and mean sometimes I cannot stand it!
I have been there for him more than anyone else in his life. They have all abandoned him at one point or another and yet I am always there for him.
Ugh.
Sorry. I hope some/any of that makes sense. I'm writing as I rage to my mom and I keep repeating myself.
Anyways big fight. Ended with him saying he is going to meet me at counseling (apparently he is parked somewhere between my house and his house) but that he did not want to hang out afterwards and then after that he said he would meet me and then we would see about afterwards.
