holdingon,

I'm so glad to read your reply to my little rant...after posting in I did think to come back and let you know I wasn't ranting at you or your advice...but you obviously understand that.

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and try hard not to dwell so on the negatives.


I'm finding this to be the most dificult part.
trying to note what actually is a negative...trying to stop myself from turning the positives into negatives by noting "well so what he was doing this or that while deep in his a anyway so how do I know it's a good thing"

ugh!! someday I'll breath easy...perhaps letting go of the fear of impending doom will do it.

after all what do I really have to fear anyway? nothing! he "needs" me far more than I "need" him anyway...that has been proven time and time again...I just keep forgeting it.

time to kick myself in the butt!

LL