I'm back after a long absence

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In a discussion with a friend today she said that she doesn't see how I can hang on and tolerate H living in the same house as me. She basically said what am I waiting for and why don't I recognize that this is over? So my question is when do you throw in the towel. If I still feel like I want this to work, I still feel like I have love for my H, even if he says he doesn't feel that for me and doesn't want it to work, am I a fool for hoping?

When do you know it is done?

I don't think I feel that right now, I do acknowledge that I can see that I may feel that, which is a big step from previous bombing when I was devastated and in denial that it could really be over. I think I have to really search my heart for the answer to this one. I don't want it to be over, I still want to put it back together.

But most of all I want to be happy