Quote: RIng thing, me thinks you are avoiding it for other reasons, the girls all agree you need to do something, and you keep putting it off.
look I am obviously not happy enough in the r as it stands to simply put my rings back on myself and for whatever reason h isn't asking. so they stay off...sad because they truly are beautiful but right now they are simply meaningless pieces of jewelry...a waist of good money...they'll sit in the cabinet until such a time that h asks me to put them back on or until I pass them on to my dd. end of story.
Quote: Dating, just make plans and let H know that you and he are going out. Tell him just be ready at such and such time.
are you kidding me???!!! I can't even get him to come home at any specific time never mind say that we are going here and be ready. The only way that would be even remotely possible is if I purchased tickets to some event or if I made plans to do something with other people. Those are not the things I'm looking for.
heck all I'm looking for is at least one night a week where we spend time together and not just sitting on the couch...maybe play a game of cards and have a few drinks or play darts..or get a sitter and go out for dinner or to catch a movie or simply go do some errands or something.
h cannot commit to one night a week and even when I (as in last week) said let's do something saturday, the response I get is let's see what saturday brings...gee funny how h can easily make plans to go to a pre season game with his brother..I'm sure he'll be able to get himself out of work and dressed and ready to hit the road promptly but cannot make plans to do anything with his sad sorry ass pathetic wife who he ignored, emotionally neglected, had an affair on (oh exuse me it wasn't sexual), left, asked for a d, etc etc etc.
I'm tired of living h's life...I'm tired of h being able to come and go...call the shots...decide when we are physical, decide when we will socialize (and having the nerve to blame our lack of time together on my emt course, please as if..the class is two nights a week, I'm typically home by ten and how does that get him out of fri or sat night???? if anything those nights should be a luxury as he can go right to sleep and not feel like he has to entertain stupid me)
either h doesn't get it or I don't get it. I'm getting really tired of feeling this way.
are things better than they were???? well sure they are better than they were a year ago...they are better than they were 2 years ago...but they sure aren't any better than they were 3 or 4 years ago..we've simply returned to the same old mundane, do nothing, go nowhere, let's sit and fall asleep on the couch life....
tonight I am so frustrated with h that I cannot even sleep in the bed with him...I had to get up and sleep on the couch (well made a stop here first)
does he not understand??
I ask for time...
he claims to have no time...
same story...
he makes time to attend his football games...
I am frustrated by the fact that he can make time for this but not for US?
I will be told..."I don't go anywhere, I don't do anything...this is all I do"
so I say nothing, but I can't hide my frustration.
I express to h that I would like to hear ily more often...
h hears my request...
still haven't heard it!!
I'm tired of making requests...I hope that I will not be one of the pathetic waw's who waits till they get involved with another man to leave.
I hope that either h starts to meet me in the middle or that I get so pathetic that this life of nothingness is enough for me.
what really pisses me off is that before h left...we were going out weekly! and h was requesting that we play cards and we were hanging out and enjoying eachothers company.
I am at a loss and frankly I'm too tired to care anymore...
I've been given hugs from you all, or pats on the back, or (hardly ever what are you all afraid of my rath?) whacks with the 2x4. at this point I doubt any of you will have any advice so I think it best that I just stop waisting time posting about myself...my h came home...end of story...I'll stop making it look so scary for those who still want their was to return.
