T2L, we were worried....{{{{{{hugs hugs hugs}}}}}}}, I figured seeing H would have a bad impact. Don't know what is worst --not seeing them or seeing them all the time to keep the wounds open. You do not seem ready to "un-love him". Sometimes if you jump in dating too soon it will not be a positive experience. Heal yourself first. Remember we are really here for you. That is why I post so much...it is a release for me when I start to panic.
A friend has been sending me e-mails about when her husband left her for 8 months and moved in with OW. She had almost no contact with him except for a few phone conversations during those long months. Here is what she said which you might relate too... "God was working on my husband when I didn't realize He was. I had very little contact with my husband during our separation. I can count the times on one hand how often we spoke on the phone, and even then, the conversations were less than five minutes. And I only saw him twice during our separation, for about fifteen or twenty minutes each time. Other than this little contact with him, I had no idea what he was doing, (but his family kept me informed). Because had I been able to contact him more frequently, I would have. And I know that I would have made a mess of what God was trying to do. I was forced to let go...and let God have His way in his life. It benefited our marriage in the long run."
She is happily restored to her husband. I would love to try and have that faith and commitment and really turn it over to God. She was on disability, lost her apartment when he moved and had to move into her mother's house. It was the lowest point in her life. I find comfort in what she sends me. I hope it helps you also.
Think we both had a few bad days. take care and we care.
Me 53 H 50 D16, D29 M 22 years bomb 7/08 INH - alien pod replaces H 8/08 - OW (direct report), I work there also bomb II - H moves 10/1 expose ow 10/22 D to be final 9-09
