ms ladybug SQUISHED (3)

[ms ladybug]

I don't know if the investigation is ongoing, or just a one day formality, "we have to interview you because of this complaint..." type of thing. I know they read him his rights which is kinda scary. He didn't tell me any of the details, or what's going on. I know he had another IA investigation the following week for a complaint that he cursed at a lady. What a surprise! Bad language coming from my h?? No way. HAHAHAHA! Anyways, again, he doesn't tell me what's going on, so I don't know what if anything came from those.

Tonight we're going out to dinner with his parents and my mom for his dad's birthday (yesterday) and my mom's birthday (today). And of course the kid's are coming. I think we'll go to Red Lobster (yummy).

You know, sometimes it just takes me looking back at my past threads to see that I could be better off without him. Looking at Christmas, Easter, etc...
Why do I want this man in my life? Am I just afraid of divorce (stigma, selling the house, effects on the kids), or do I really still love him? I know I love him, but I love the OLD him. This new person, I don't even know, and honestly, I don't even LIKE HIM.

Rambling...