Glad you had a great time on your trip..sorry about the feelings about connecting...I was feeling that way tonight..I sometimes wonder who h is..who we have become..and not so much IF we will ever be together again..but will we have anything in common or ever feel the connection if we do get back...I feel so alone from him..have become used to not having him here..
I hope you can find some answer or solution or whatever you need to be happy..it has been a long haul and it gets real easy to want to throw in the towel.