the mini vacation was nice. we stayed in a tiny little cabin at a campground. we took in a couple of the family parks up there (story land and a water park) the kids had fun especially son who got to sleep on a top bunk. h and I went on some of the big water slides at the water park, the scenery is always beautiful up there (nh) driving through the notches is always humbling.
But as far as feeling more connected with h as a result of the trip...NOPE infact I am left feeling even more disconnected than before we left.
h is a great dad and a good "family man" when it comes down to it. As far as being a "partner" I just don't feel it from him. there is little conversation of any value in either direction. I'm tired. I feel like I get more emotion from strangers than I do from him.
We did have a joint c session scheduled for last night (we just returned home yesterday afternoon) but I didn't get a sitter so instead of just cancelling I went alone, when I got home at about 9:30 h was already asleep and asked nothing about it...infact he didn't even inqire as to why I wanted to go alone.
