New Thread-Husband Moved in With OW(T2L)

[Trying2live]

HI guys.
Sorry, been in a fog myself a few days. Crying a bit more and now(sorry guys). I don't know how you guys do it seeing your H and/or living with them. So hard having seeing him on Saturday at the game.
I've had a few very angry moments. Not at him, as you guys know we have almost no contact, except maybe an email every Friday or now every other Friday for financial reasons.

It's like seeing him, I am reminded of where my marriage is and what has happened. Not seeing him I can at least not be reminded of it. And he was so far on the other side of the stadium that I could barely see him but I knew it was him. He said hello to several of my friends from church. It just hurt. Most of them spent time over on the other side near him. Even H brother commented on it.
Children have decided to start visiting with H. I don't feel like seeing him ya know. It hurts. I'm tired of hurting. So many people think I should move on. They don't understand that I adored this man and I don't know how to un-love him. And even if my GAL'ing is going he would never know because we don't speak or see each other, so GAL is just for my benefit(i know thats good too). I know if I started dating I would feel better-so many of my friends did that-but I feel like that's a form of medicating and I would rather move through my pain and be healed emotionally because either way it all comes around even if you try to skip a step.
Guess I just been feeling depressed. And I know you all have been here....I need to go back and read all the posts above this one. I'll try and get back on tonight...
Thanks guys for your friendship.....sorry for the rambling