I know, I sound like I'm about to backslide. Believe me, I won't.
Sadly, my friends make it more difficult for me to let go. I've got to listen to everybody and nearly EVERYTHING they say makes me wince inwardly at the pain. They mean well, of course, but they recall things I'm trying so hard to forget. We were always very social and our friends always referred to us as "soul mates" and " THE couple" and when they start brooding over the past I'm hurting over and over again. They take turns meeting up with H, thinking they can "make him see the light" and then tell me about these meetings more than I want/need to hear. One after another they lose hope, seeing that H is adamant in what he's doing. ARRRGH!
Up until now I was only "talking" about my sitch here, on board. Having these convos in real life is something I didn't have to face yet. Honestly, it was easier abroad, where we didn't have many friends and not much of a history together.
Oh well, that will pass too.
BTW, H has stopped his phone calls altogether. I guess, again it was his idea of being nice and, yes, slowly cutting the bonds.
I have dropped the rope for real and I'm not going to contact H, no matter what, and I know that he will have to face the "Spider reality" sooner or later. It's just that at the moment GALing makes it harder for me...
Just a bit of a blue mood :).
(((Hugs))) to all.
I ask not for a lighter burden, but for broader shoulders ____________________________________________________ M 46 H 45 D 17 M/T 23 Bomb #1 (ILYBNILWY) 12.06 Bomb #2 (OW) 12.07 Bomb #3 (chose OW over M) 9.08
