h's work has always come first...that's fine...that's somewhat understandable...but for petes sake...your the boss...you can schedule yourself some time off...you can take 5 minutes out of what you are doing to address an issue at home without being irritable towards your wife...it's not like the boss is going to give you flack...all you have to do is say "sorry, son had a little accident" and nobody with any decency is going to begrudge you the 5-10 min you took away from them to address it properly...but instead you choose to put your customers and employees first as if youre performing brain sergury or something...sorry what you are doing is performing a superficial task of helping snotty people make their yards look nice...you want to be everyones hero cept for to the people you should be...you put them last and it's not fair...I'm tired of putting you first...I'm tired of considering you...when you call here for nothing and the kids are running a muck and going crazy even at my worst I have never been short with you or made you feel like you were less important when the truth of the matter is you are and you should be less important than what's going on here.
I'm tired of wondering if I'm good enough for you...fact is I am too good for you..
I'm tired of considering you....so what if I have class tues and thurs...if invited by my friends to go to dinner on fri why shouldn't I...it's not like you'd care if I weren't here anyway...infact I think you'd be happier if you didn't have to deal with me at all.
you never say I love you...
I bet if I were to complain about the fact that we haven't gone out alone in about a month you'd say...we're going away for a whole weekend aren't we? sure we're going away..we're going away with the kids and I'd be willing to bet that once we put the kids to bed...you'll just go to sleep too!
I'm sure by now you can sense that there is something wrong...you have learned to recognize my silence...you might ask but then again you might not...the king of "as if" that you are...but you can bet that when and if you do ask...I will not waist my breath to say anything to you about it...we have a c session monday night but I don't think I will bother to get a sitter..don't see any point in having you come along...it's not productive and I don't feel you are being honest...you seem to want to just act as if there too...pretending all is well and things are getting better..sure they're getting better for you and you alone...the kids don't see you, I don't see you and I'm begining to not want to see you.
I hope that you are happy with your life I hope that my suffering is worth it for you.
I can tell you right now that if you forget to erase your phone or happen to be seen somewhere with someone you shouldn't be with...life as you know it is over...infact your life will be over...you will work 6 days a week and take care of this lawn but you wont get to enjoy it, you wont come home to a cooked meal. My life on the other hand will just begin...I will break free from your lies and your selfishness....I will live for me and the kids and have little or no consideration for you.
gee I wonder how long I have to be married to get alimony for the rest of my life?
