Husband's Missed Oppotunity #2

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I have life ins from my work. I asked H about it yesterday, he said he'd look into it - whatever. I know he has it. He worked for this company before we were married and they offered it then. He just doesn't want to shell out the whopping $15 or whatever a month.

ST - just want to let you know that I don't emphasize that I can do all this on my own. What I do say is that I have been handling it on my own because he is not contributing. I make sure that I stress that K is BOTH our daughter and all I want is for him to make sure she is provided for. Here's something funny. MIL and I went to see a psychic (for kicks) on Saturday. She said to me - "your H feels like he is not contributing or supporting the family. He knows better, too." She doesn't know we are separated and I was wearing my wedding rings. So, I thought that was pretty darn intersting. Because it is hitting the nail right on the head. He DOES know better. He tries to turn it around by saying that he doesn't want to be supporting my partying. Oh, yes, that's right between working full time, taking care of our daughter full time, feedings, diaper changes, going to bed by 9pm and up at 5am, laundry, cleaning, cooking - I have plenty of time to go out and party it up. He's a goofball. HE KNOWS BETTER. Doesn't mean he'll do the right thing, though.

H2W - the child support is a messy issue. He got FIRED - yet again, from his job right after K was born. Up until that point, he was paying his portion of the bills. When he was jobless, he paid nothing. He finally got his first paycheck (from the job, I helped him get, mind you) and asked me how much I wanted - duh, all of it it what I WANT. I told him I want the first half of the CS we agreed upon, he needs to pay daycare this week and start paying his share of the bills again. So, on Sunday, I ask him where my money is. He hasn't cashed his check, yet. Please, here were go again, excuses, excuses, excuses. I'm going to make sure when we go to mediation, he pays all the back support he owes me including interest.

So, Tuesday is a new day. Still not as happy as I have been, but better than yesterday. Had quite a few text convo with H yesterday. But, I started to feel like maybe I was trying to find reasons to reach out to him. So, I stopped texting him. Trying to get my head back on straight, now.

Hope everyone is doing well.

ST - my email is on FB - send me the info on the ins if you can.