I was pleasantly surprised last night...h fell asleep on the couch (I could have fallen asleep there too but made myself get up and go up to bed, h was following but apparently couldn't get up, no biggie) at about 4 am he did make it upstairs at wich time he cuddled me and once again tried to stay as close as possible...not simply the old leg laid over my legs as a means of connection, but actually putting his head on my pillow.
some of you may recall that a while ago he was doing this...now it's back again...I'm not going to worry about why it stopped as it could be any number of things and trying to figure it out would be a waist of my time. key is to not get all freaked out when it goes away for a while as long as it comes back.
I know that h is fertilizing again (there are at least 2 applications throughout the season) wich means that he will have to go to ow's house...I don't assume he will let me know when he does and honestly I don't care.
things are great with one exception...sex...desire...I am getting tired of watching this man looking all tan and tone and fine come into my house and wanting him...knowing that more likely than not I'll be denied..but what really irritates me is that he does not look at me that way...or at least he doesn't let it be known to me.
