Thanks for that AG. I've reread your 2nd & 3rd paragraph and I guess it resonates. The other thing is, our anniversary is also coming up - 3 weeks. 2 weeks before D is final. Part of me wants to write a letter, say I loved her and am sorry to lose her friendship. I know exactly what to say that will send her over the edge.
But that's manipulation. And what would I get in return? Another breakdown? Another promise followed by self-centered immature crap? She's selfish and doesn't have any empathy. That's the first thing I thought about her and that's what my friends warned me about before we married. She is an incredible woman - incredible! - but she has no empathy. It's all about her.
The problem is, we really do have an incredible connection. I say that as someone who knows. When we're in the room together, the air crackles - she feels it as strongly as I do. I realize I can't deal with her, but d*mn it's hard not to forgive everything just to feed off that energy! When we let ourselves, we can become hungry for each other's company. She's in denial right now, but her actions speak louder - the sleeve-tugging is trying to maintain the connection. She thinks we'll be friends so she can pursue her own selfish ends but still have my emotional connection. WRONG!
Israel? Lol - what an experience. No, I'm not an archaeologist. I am capable of doing extreme video production, so went over to document this dig. It was financed by a fanatic looking for the tomb of moses. He was trying to find the lost ark of the covenant. Needless to say, it was quite an experience!
