Well, I'm back to the sadness again. I guess it all stems frum wanting things to speed up a bit but knowing they can't. Not yet anyway.
He came by and gave me what I need for tomorrow, had a quick chat about work and D, and then he left. No kiss, no hug nothing. Well he did look a bit sad tonight. I guess something triggered it.
On Friday when we spoke he said that if he came home he'd only hurt me again it wouldn't be fair to me. I guess he doesn't trust himself? Is that a common feeling of the WAS?
Jen *The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present*
