I actually avaoided a confrontation tonight and walked away when she wanted to have a discussion. Its a little step...but I have to start someplace.
You are right, I blame myself for alot....but I did not realize how bad it really was. I tried to help her, but I think she has been gone for so long, no matter what I did, it wouldn't have helped.
I will need to let her figure thngs out on her own and force her to handle life by herself. I enabled her for a long time and tried to do what was right. Unfortunately, she relied on me too much which then then would become to resent. After a certain point, she felt she had no choice but to leave. Of course it was her choice.....and now she must deal with the consequences.
I will continue to focus on me and the kids. I keep hoping for a better day tomorrow. I am trying to keep busy and do things everyday to keep my mind occupied. Its tough....but I have no choice.
Love that song!! Thanks for the guidance and kind words.
