I don't know who that man is behind the curtain 2

[MissH]

Hi everyone,

I have such a hard time keeping up nowadays since school started for me.

Wednesday we have a realtor coming to look at the house.

It makes me sad as I don't want people coming into my home and looking to make it their own.

It also has me trying to stuff my anger down of being mad at JA over this.

How can he think what he has done and a divorce is going to be better than what we had?

I don't get it.

I have also started having feelings of blaming myself again.

I feel like everything is my fault.

I didn't make him feel loved so he went elsewhere for it.

I think I need to go see a therapist about all my mixed feelings.

I just feel like between school, being a full time mom, trying to keep the house going, I just don't have time for much.

I'm ok though, I am better than I sound.

Thanks for listening to me vent.