found myself locked out of my current thread wich I suppose is just as well since it was drifting anyway.
lots of stuff running through my head these days.
my conversation with my dad yesterday didn't actually set me off I was already in a mood to begin with.
just some stirrings I suppose...allowing myself once again to feel bad for myself and wondering if I'm living it right.
on one hand I've got this great life...I've got an awesome home with a beautiful yard...the kids and I don't have to leave for anything, we've got it all right here.
I don't work (well other than to care for the kids and the house) right now and haven't since bed rest two weeks before son was born (he's now 4) and there is no pressure to go back.
I have the ability to volunteer for the towns ambulance company and a h who admires me for doing so.
though it is sometimes hard for me to tell because h doesn't speak my language I know h does love me.
what's missing???
is anything missing??
Why Georgia
I am driving up 85 in the
kind of morning that lasts all afternoon
I’m just stuck inside the gloom
4 more exits to my apartment but
I am tempted to keep the car in drive
and leave it all behind
cause I wander sometimes
about the outcome
Of a still verdictless life
am I living it right
am I living it right
am I living it right
why, why Georgia, why
rent a room and I fill the spaces with
wood and places to make it feel like home
but all I feel’s alone
it might be a quarter life crisis
or just the stirring in my soul
either way
I wonder sometimes
about the outcome
of a still verdictless life
am I living it right
am I living it right
am I living it right
why, why Georgia, why
so what so I’ve got a smile on
It’s hiding the quiet superstitions in my head
don’t believe me
don’t you dare believe me
when I say I’ve got it down
everybody is just a stranger
but that’s the danger in going my own way
I guess it’s a price I have to pay
still everything happens for a reason
is no reason not to ask yourself if you are
living it right
are you living it right
are you living it right
why, why Georgia, why
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...and leave this [censored] behind...
...I guess it's a price I was born to pay...
on a better note back to the three positives.
1. got a 92 on my last emt quiz and attended a water rescue training at the town lake last night with the towns fire and ambulance co's.
2. h still mentioning going away the last weekend in july, and after mentioning dotto's nice offer of her place h suggested another weekend in august!
3. my kids are adorable, healthy and damn funny too!!
