God give me the patience and the strength...7

[theotherhalf]

Geez! I posted back to you WCW. Left the room, came back and it never went through. Now I have to remember what I said...

Ready for H to go back in the tunnel? Ready for me to backslide? For my emotions to fall to the floor again?.

My fear is that one of these times, the bubble is going to break...

Yes WCW, I am ready. I am expecting...with hopes that we won't, but know that we probably will. But I still feel in my gut that each time we reach this point of being friends, of getting along so well, that we are closer to R. Maybe I am so totally wrong, but I "feel" it. Each time we come here, I am stronger. H is more himself. We are closer. H spends more time here and with me. Maybe it's just because he is testing "us", himself, me.

How do I help him get over the fear of going back to the way it was? I have changed, but I don't know if I've changed what needs to change. How can I show him that I don't want to go back there either?

Yes WCW, I am ready. I am pushing forward with baby steps but with full armor on. But I am ME and it will hurt, no changing that...