Well, My weekend wasnt too bad. I am however having some financial problems lately which is making me not really care about my H and our issues.
He is however unusually upbeat the last few days. Why? Because he had some good fortune over the weekend. He made a little extra cash and got a small side job and he is moving out of his house that he pays rent for and other utilities and....get ready for this. He is moving into his parents camper.
Their Camper! He is only going to pay a light bill every month, thats it!! He is flying on the money high this weekend I guess. Here I am now worrying about whether to pay my water bill or feed my kids! Ugh!
Times are hard! Please say a pray for me today!
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
The Bomb: 08/05 H moves out: 06/2006 H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07 H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08 H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09 Divorced 08-12 Kids: 22, 20, 19
[quote=kissak]Honestly guys...I know you are all always saying not to let my H drag me into his drama. But what am I supposed to do when he calls me after 1am in the morning crying and upset and that he has thought about killing himself?
Kissak - I haven't been on as much - and just read this but can I tell you something? You know my xh did try and kill himself last summer. The real deal- the note, all of it...so since then it has been his "mantra" with me. AND IT IS VERY VERY HARD....he has thrown it out there much in the past year --- I think only to me...why? I dont know EXCEPT I DO know what it does to my heart and head.
Most recently was the beginning of August. I did "listen" and did waht I felt was right in my heart. I have talked to my counselor much about this - as I am like you - dont want to mess up the one time he means it.... Soooo I have decided that if I ever REALLY REALLY feel in my gut that he is going to call 911 and give them my x's address....that is what you are suppose to do....(i have done alot of reading etc.) WE CAN NOT GO TO SAVE THE DAY!!!
Those words are manipulation. Do they mean it? I think so---- but by doing that they pull our heart strings...
sorry just my two cents (more like $1 worth) but I am trying like you to move forward...and I know how much you care....
M-20 years/BOMB 12/24/06 Moved out 3/12/07 D final 7/30/2008 finding myself again
I appreciate the thoughts. I actually thought I was getting to the point that I would be able to breathe some. Thank the good Lord I just paid off my truck!! I dont have to worry about that bill anymore.
I will be ok I hope. I have faith in the Lord that he will take care of things.
The only thing I dont have to worry about anymore is the OW! Yeah, I think she has moved on and found happiness with someone else. One can only hope.
My Daughter told me that the OW's son had told my daughter on the bus last week that his mom had dumped her dad cuz he cheated on her and that the son didnt like her dad anyway.
She asked what he meant and he said he had told too much already. My Daughter didnt seem bothered by it too much but said she was going to tell her daddy what the boy had said. My daughter also told me that she saw the OW with her new boyfriend and had stopped to tell my D hello on the roadside. Im sure my Daughter will report all of this to my H. Now he can deal with the pain of hearing what is going on with her, like I had to deal with hearing what my H had been doing with the OW when with my kids.
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
Thanks Cagz....I felt listening to him was the right thing to do. Next time I will tell him that I am going to call 911 and I will probably keep him on the line with me anyway.
This all is so hard. Just when you think you are getting somewhere, the devil steps in again.
I have decided that everything I have belongs to the Lord and it is his to deal with !! I will do whatever he leads me to do!
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
Ok, I really felt like biting my H head off last night, but I played it cool and tried not to say anything. This weekend is his with the kids. But I knew he had to work a couple of hours in the mornings and i was going to have to keep the kids till 11am. So, he brings them home last night and says that he is going to bring them to me at 8am Saturday and go to his class then go to work after that. So, I will have them till 3 in the afternoon. Im not complaining about having my kids, but this is his weekend. And he should be spending the time with them. He should skip his class in my opinion. Ugh, I said nothing and kept my mouth shut. The thing is I have to work for a short amount of time on Saturday too, but Im the one that has to worry about a sitter now.
Just irritates me, thats all.
Had to vent.
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
He's usually ok with it, but honestly I never change my plans around. If I ever ask him to take the kids, it's because they are asking to go spend time with him and I let the kids ask him. He brought up the fact that he kept our son last friday nite when It was my weekend, but that was because our D had a sleepover and didnt want her brother there and he werent sure he could watch him till last min. But that was at night, he was sleeping. He didnt have things he could do at those hours.
Its ok though.
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
