Things went really well today. The procedure was not that big of a deal. Thank you for keeping me in your thoughts. I should hear next week the results.
I am trying so hard to let STBXH go. I really try not to focus on him anymore, but today made me angry that he was not there with me. I know that I will get through this just fine. I have had to deal with so much and have been able to let go. He, on the only hand, has only run from things and carries everything deep down inside him. Because I understand this, I feel very sorry for him. I believe that one day the guilt is going to smack him like a dump truck. It will definately suck to be him. But even if that does not happen, at least I know I let go of someone who is no longer a good person.
I hate that he still fills some many of my thoughts. I am trying to stop that but he has been apart of me for so long it is really hard to get him out of my head. Do I think he even thinks about me? No, so I should not waste my energy thinking about him. I am trying, I really am.
Broken Hearted ------------------ Me - 36 H - 37 S - 8 Married - 1992 ILYNILWY - August 2007 Moved Out - March 2008 OW Revieled - May 28, 2008 Filed for D - July 2, 2008
