So no real progress made this weekend. It was Tawny's 15th birthday. Carrie took Ross to breakfast that morning and when she returned she sent a bag in for Tawny with a card and a ring. She did not come in and see her daughter for her birthday, she did not call her daughter on her birthday, and she did not text her daughter on her birthday.
She wrote this semi mushy card to Tawny which at least contained no guilt in it, other than that, nothing.
Pretty sad to say the least. Also her parents didnt call Tawny or send a birthday card or anything, se la vie.....
Tawny's friend shared the same birthday so they had a joint party with lots of friends and a giant slumber party with like 15 girls. Not at my house thank god I think overall it was a good birthday for Tawny.
My mom saw Carrie with OM this weekend walking down the street holding hands. It was very sad as my mom hasn't had to see that side of it up until now. Of course my mom is very old fashioned and believes it to be incredibly wrong while we are still legally married, but I think it was more that it hurt for her to see it. Carrie and her were very close and of course Carrie has blown her off as well.
I am doing fairly well. Enjoyed my week with both kids and got to spend Saturday night doing laundry and watching movies with my girlfriend. She fell asleep and ended up staying the night. It was actually very nice and fealt great waking up Sunday morning and having someone special to make breakfast for.
My feelings for Yakeline have been getting stronger lately. I think for a long time I have tried to keep them at bay simply because of my situation. I just know that when I am with her I feel great, I know that she makes me very happy, and I know that there is something very special about her for me. I do however think that I am scared to death of it. I know that I do think about what happened and whether or not it will happen again with someone else.
I have to figure out how to trust again.... I have to figure out how to be able to not think the worst is going to happen. I know some of you have had experience with this, so how do you go about getting past the hurt and betrayal when it comes to new relationships?
I think overall it was a good birthday for Tawny. 