So here is the wierd mix.

In stepping out - out of the toilet bowl you still have to let go. Why is it when you begin to let go your heart pulls harder BACK? i don't get it!!! AND it is extremely frustrating....I just want my freakin' heart to stop it!!

I want to stop wondering.
I want to stop caring if he wonders about me.
I just want it to stop!!


M-20 years/BOMB 12/24/06
Moved out 3/12/07
D final 7/30/2008
finding myself again