JUST USED LRT-WHAT DO I DO NOW???

[Sanderika]

Thanks Barb,

I am scared. How did I go from being "in the driver's seat" (your exact words on 9/5) to being "in the garbage disposal" today????

I have been standing dark for a long time. I took the advice and have been friendly and sexy and thoughtful and kind and PATIENT. It was everyone's advice less than 2 weeks ago and was even way before that.

Am I still in the driver's seat if I do nothing??? Wait til Thurs. when H gets his, excuse me .... OW's papers back in the mail and see what out of this world turn this takes next.

I don't want to get a divorce. I want to see the papers but not accept them. I want H to file for his own D if that is what he wants. It becomes more and more apparent that this could go on forever. I love the advice but I am scared to death to use it. I don't like where I am though. I am not the only one on this BB that is scared and hesitant. I wish we all had some insight into where our actions would take us. I DO NOT WANT THE OW TO HAVE ANY CONTROL. Right now she isn't getting any with the papers.

I just tried the L but hung up before they answered.

My turmoil and fear and anxiety over this is too big.

I will keep the lines open here.....

I hate to be a bother to anyone.....

Sanderika