Back in mid July, she was sleeping here while she was between places and while she was asleep, I tossed her purse and grabbed her phone and the phone that OM2 gave her and I sat here on my laptop and I copied every text message in her sent and inboxes.
Like I said, I could divorce her for how she squeezes the toothpaste tube. I'm virtually certain. I say virtually because I've spent half a lifetime letting her tell me that the Emperor has an awesome new outfit on and so, I'm only 99.99% sure. There are times when I wonder if there really could be another explanation. The truth is, if I want to walk away I can with no bad feelings and no one would say that I didn't give everything to this relationship.
I'm still trying to save my kids from a divorce. I'm still trying to make this not be happening. I'm still trying to not fail at marriage. I'm still trying to fix it. I've got to do this so that I can look at myself and my kids and anyone else and say with confidence, I did everything I could up to the limit of who I am as a man to save and rebuild this relationship. The money means nothing, being able to say with confidence that I tried everything is priceless.
I don't want my kids to ever wonder if Dad took the easy way out or did Dad really try, especially if I file the papers.
