Getting past the hurt and anger

[Kelly23]

I went with a friend to see this movie last night...bad idea...hit way too close to home.
The movie was not really that good but makes sense if your spouse has had an affair, and then it is too close to home to enjoy..at least it was for me.
I was angry all over again at myself for not kicking him out back then. Do any of the rest of you feel that way? Why can't I get over this? I really do not think we will ever be able to stay married until he leaves. I feel like i will never be satisfied with him again until I prove to myself that I can make it without him and am not just letting him stay here because I am afraid of being alone.