New Thread-Husband Moved in With OW(T2L)

[hope3343]

Hello all shout out to {{{{{twinhope, t2l, jgrind}}}}}, just catching up on the threads.
First after having some positive effect from DB, I crashed and burned Saturday night. H came back from dinner about 10, not drinking and our D15 was sleeping over friends. He sits and starts to talk and saying first he felt bad for me when our friend from China kept asking if we can come next year and I said to ask H. Then he asks how my new friend is and I say ok and that she has a good network of friends, so he says is there anyone that is interested in me or asked me out, so I say well I have met some professional people but I am not interested in dating anyone (what the hell???) I should have ended the conversation and went to another room, instead I took the bait and lost every DB strategy and went back to my old depressing self. H says do you think it will be a mistake with me taking this apartment so close to the house (about half mile from my house - will see it everyday), so I said well it will be good for D, and he says well I worry that you will feel you can stop by anytime you want and I will need privacy. I went nuts. So I said don't worry I will NEVER stop there, I have my dignity and will hold my head high, I don't need to see you with the Plastic Pinata (my special name for the OW), or any other women. How dare you etc, what do you think that i am made of stone, H apologizes and says sorry I was just thinking ahead. Of course I cried, cried cried, little begging, pathetic. I really hated him for about 2 hours, I went to bed but I guess he could not sleep and he did not come to bed till about 3 am. Today our friend came over and then we went to the sports bar to watch the football game (that I don't have much interest but trying to be a DB), but H almost ignored me and drank 2 beers. I feel very depressed tonight. Was raining earlier and then I went out and walked the beach in the dark. Needed to get out and just scream.