letting go

[artteach]

Not a bad weekend, but could have been better. H was home on Sunday, I did not wait for him, went to church and he was waiting for me when I came home. The kids were here with his mom, good for him to spend some time. He was acting almost normal, but I am not reading too much into it. No touching or kissing, but I was not waiting around for it either. He talked a little about vacation next summer and he something he said prompted me to say "are you going to do that alone?" he said, I have asked you over and over to do that stuff with me all those years. Well, yes I know for quite a few years I did neglect part of our marriage, I am not denying that and the affair really made me sit down and realize that I did that but I have admitted to it and now just don't assume that I would not want to do those things anymore. Glad he was talking about the family vacation, a little pissed that he brought up "well you never want to do things with me" I have been very good about not dredging up his recent past lately and it has been me these last few months that has tried to do more things in our realtionship. Well, putting kids to bed and going to spend the evening together.